The darker side of being a doctor

The darker side of being a doctor is a reality many in the medical profession face. Despite a strong support system and personal resilience, even seasoned surgeons like the author have experienced periods of depression, anxiety, burnout and suicidality. These are not isolated feelings, but rather common symptoms of the stressors faced in the demanding world of healthcare.

The author, a surgeon, attributes much of these negative emotions to the overwhelming nature of their work. As a surgeon, they spend most of their lives at work, and the impact of their profession seeps into various aspects of their life, including family and social life. The author has vividly described the consequences of overwork, such as losing control over days, constant on-call duties, long commutes, and inadequate sleep arrangements.

They also highlight the added burden of bureaucratic red tape and the constant need to adapt to new guidelines, policies and technologies.

The ever-changing demands of the job create an environment of uncertainty and stress. The author's day begins with an onslaught of paperwork, followed by patient consultations and an overbooked operating list. External factors, such as emergencies and lack of control over scheduling, further compound the challenges. The author emphasizes the lack of flexibility and the inability to prioritize tasks due to the structured nature of their work.

The intensity of these on-call periods leaves little room for personal support or respite. The author acknowledges that they have a duty of care to be available, but also acknowledges the toll it takes on their mental and physical well-being. The constant interruptions, rushed schedules and the pressure to maintain high standards contribute to feelings of exhaustion and frustration.

The author concludes by expressing the difficulty in finding the support needed to navigate these challenges. The support system is often compromised due to time constraints and the relentless pace of their work. The author questions when they will have the opportunity to talk to colleagues and find solace in a community that understands the trials of their profession.