Self-acceptance was a lifelong struggle, but an autism diagnosis helped make it easier
I wondered for years whether I had ever actually liked myself. It fluctuated, but the fact that it was a question at all told me the answer was negative more often than not. I don’t think I would go so far as to say I hated myself. But at times I wasn't a fan; I allowed myself to be judged by the opinions of others rather than my own. We’re all trying to be the best version of ourselves, for the…
For years, the author questioned whether they ever genuinely liked themselves. This uncertainty often led them to question if the unaltered version of themselves was acceptable. They allowed others' opinions to influence their self-perception and often adjusted their behavior to fit various social contexts. This constant need to alter themselves to seek acceptance took a toll on their mental well-being, leading to disproportionate anxiety in everyday situations.
Before receiving an autism diagnosis, the author struggled to understand why simple tasks required so much effort. A diagnosis provided context and helped them recognize that some of their traits were simply parts of them they had never understood. The author still masks their autism, but they feel less compelled to hide their true self.
They can be more comfortable being quiet when they have nothing to say, enthusiastic without immediately doubting if they should tone it down, and admit when something makes them anxious. This newfound comfort with themselves has been an unexpected gift of their diagnosis. Self-acceptance has not been instantaneous, but it has become easier to embrace their unique traits.
The author urges others to consider getting evaluated if they have spent years feeling different or struggling with seemingly ordinary life challenges. Understanding oneself can lead to greater acceptance and happiness.
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