Suicide And The Fight To Stay Alive (2)

Suicide is often not about a desire to die, but rather an attempt to escape unbearable psychological pain and emotional suffering. Researchers refer to this as "psychache." A personal example includes the story of a mother whose son faced a threat to be taken away, leading her to contemplate suicide to prevent losing her child. This incident remains a trauma for her.

Suicide is usually multifactorial, stemming from a combination of vulnerabilities and acute stressors, rather than a single cause. Previous suicide attempts are the strongest predictor of future attempts, according to WHO. In a recent emotional breakdown, the author, who has a history of attempted suicide, was hospitalized due to trauma and the impact on her immune system.

She was prescribed anti-depressants, despite her fears, as her therapist believed medication was necessary due to her prior suicide attempt and other risk factors. Social connection is a significant protective factor against suicide, with people experiencing belonging, supportive relationships, and hope being less likely to die by suicide.

Conversely, perceived isolation and feelings of being a burden are associated with increased risk. The author clings to her son as her anchor and source of meaning, stating that as long as he exists, she will love him and live for him.