Postpartum psychosis made me think I was a prophet. I couldn't bring myself back.

Ayana Lage delivered her daughter in 2020 and was subsequently hospitalized for 17 days due to postpartum psychosis. Courtesy of Ayana Lage. Struggling with delusions and hallucinations, Lage believed she was a prophet and the only person capable of caring for her baby. Despite the warning signs, she felt elated immediately after birth.

As her mental state deteriorated, she transitioned from euphoria to crying uncontrollably, fearing that no one would understand her condition. Upon admission to the hospital, Lage experienced visual hallucinations, which she attributed to her brain's protective mechanism. She spent 17 days in the psych ward, where her husband and family closely monitored her recovery.

Lage, who had previously dealt with major depression and anxiety, felt that her postpartum psychosis was frightening and humbling, as she felt entirely disconnected from reality. Her husband, a strong advocate for her during this time, played a crucial role in her healing process. After her discharge, Lage had another child four years later, with the support of her medical team and family.